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if,
you're in rj,
i wun ask you to do any chores too.


ouch.
mum, i dnt think you noe but it hurts, a whole bloody lot.to hear tht coming frm you. for tht moment i was stunned. then i was trying so dammit hard to swallow tht lump tht formed in my throat. i was choking, back on my tears. esp when daddy spoke for me.

no
i cant cry. im nt going to let a single tear fall. nt now nt infront of you.

im sorry im nt the daughter u imagined to be when you were pregnant wif me.im sorry i nv did habour the hopes of being a doctor as u'd wish. im sorry i cldnt play the violin. im sorry i was nv someone expressive saying iloveyou every hour.

but, but
i thot aft all these yrs, u hv alr accepted me for hu i am. someone so normal and average tht u can prob talk to for 10 mins and say, chuchu.,--who?

why. why.? issit tht the only thing u seem to care abt is the few numbers printed on a slip of paper.you said tht im rebellious. i really din noe thts wad u thot of me. i thoti thot, i had done a near perfect job of masking my rebelliousness, if thrs much to start wif. i sweep wash scrub fold cook. and u say i do it unwillingly u say i shd feel happy while doing all those things and want to do it. i asked, are you enjoying household chores then? u said, its nt an option, you hv to do. and so i said, yeah i noe and thts the reason why i did all those without complaining isnt it? and now you want me to plaster on a smile and look as tho its my fav pastime being a maid?


when i said i do more things than most ppl my age does and name a few name you say. dont compare. so, i gather things like reporting every single achievement of xxx whos now in cambridge on scholarship, xxx scored well enough to go dhs, xxx earned her own pocket money since a's, xxx is gg to be a doctor when she grows up--in a tone thts blatantly envious of their parents-- isnt comparing then? and wads so wrong to go out wif a guy, thts no more than a good fren? wads wif the number of smses i send every mth? wads wif me hving guy frens? wads wif me reading books thts got a heart shaped label at the side? why must i only stick to autobiographies of famous ppl?wads wif me hving a fringe?



you say,
you wont interfere with my life aft im married.
i tell you.
i want to get married
now.
but no, of course i din say tht. it's be seen as an act of defiance, rebelling, no?
i told you, im gd when it comes to enveloping my feelings, no?
we talk--
i dun say out wad i think, u think im keeping mum you think im nt listening.
i voice my opinions, you say im being obstinate and difficult.

if im in ITE,
i think i shd jus hv an overdose, to save you frm any embarrassment in case someone asked whr yr daughter is gg nxt yr.

tell me;tell me
wad do you want
mummy dearest.?

and do u noe tht when i told you abt dis on the phone i was crying?


merry xmas to all.
<33.!

hello stranger(:



name's chuchu.
that's all you need to know if you're on a need to know basis(:



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