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time erases all things.

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EDIT-EDITED.



hi all.

wad am i doing here now? loll.. when the rest of my class is at the cafe? cus i absolutely hv nth in common to talk wif to them and taaa. mel had dental app so yupp. im officially outcasted. and jus when i thot i still hv my lovely mp3 to save me frm loneliness it decided to give up on me and jammed. brilliant. lalala.. i slept at like 2plus last nite? zzz. OH and mon was #@!%!$ i woke up LATE. heard dis voice nx to me saying its 6 plus le then i literally shot up and checked my hp ya and its 637... WOW when i usually wake up at 520? normally i reach bedok by then and i had such a hard time getting a cab. i reached sch at 745 but their watch kuku la say i ltr than 745 and made me stand and do nth for an hr!! walao my maths gna fail le still make me miss tutorial. damnit la somemore spent 13 freaking bucks on taxi fare. if i knew i wld be late mite as well slowly stroll thr and reach at 8 plus??! zzzzzzzzzz. wad an great start for the week!


acty i wonder why i sound so nonchalant abt being alienated frm my class. mb thrs no use in rambling so much. OH and mel's gna tk SAT test and gg overseas for studies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!she said she cant stand it here anymore. ohhhhhhhhman.thts it lor my only fren gone le. and do u expect me to follow suit and tk SAT? i bloody wish.


but acty if u all do bother to ask or probe more i wld say de. cus eth i wonder if u all wld be sick of hearing me rant. i donwant. but truth is i really want to say it out. sometimes for no reason i wld find myself tearing and goodness its so embarrassing! haha ya so before u ask me ath prepare tissue pls. sigh. mb im nt the only one but i do feel super lost in sa like i dont belong. i hv noone now tht roy is gone. haii. oh hv la but wt always like so busy so cant whole day ka jiao him. and i oso paiseh to keep troubling him i think he'd be irritated and think im so problematic. sometimes when im on the phone wif some ppl i really feel like spilling eth but i noe once tht happens gone case le i wun stop de. so haha. haii. its okay.. mb things wld get better.



too many visible scars on my legs. but so many more tht u cant see. ohkay! its econs tutorial now. i shant be thr too early lest my class label me as a geek again. zzzzz. oh crap. stomachache.


EDIT.

im back. aft my econs tutorial ath hr of break till chem lect. shall continue. anw i realised im easily irritated by those constant noise ard me. such as tapping yr feet shaking yr leg spinning yr pen and keep letting it hit the table. loll.. i noe its sounds dumb but yeah i wld be tempted to scold tht person. WHOOPS. anw i wonder why we mus always sit as a class in the cafe wif our cg. mel and i had dis convo ytd on the way home,


mel; i feel like dying
me;..?
mel; ya as in dying, literally.
me; oh, hmm.. me too.
me; mb if thrs a car filled wif carbon monoxide i wld go in. not a bad way to die.
mel; ya.. somemore u will die wif a pinkpink face.
me; ...


its so immensely SPASTIK. anw mel u hv absolutely no reason to wanna die cus u are gna tk yr SAT. rahhh. shdnt i be the one wanting to fall off mt everest? nahh i still hv to go all the way up.
PAEO7S17. oh those heart warming memories. booohoooo. my class lacks ppl like suriyanti jialun sean dipan nick tian wei yunnguan alnishiya renying dewi thomas blahhh.

okimntok. butwldurlycare. ormbitdoesntmatter.
pw. /shudders/
i think ive lost the ability to be sociable. 6yrs of loyang is enough. but i think im nt trying hard enough. no im nt trying and i dno why im not. tiring? excuses excuses.


chem lecture now. hooray.

EDIT.
due to a jam up thr in my brain i took the wrong bus home and instead of dropping off at kallang. it sent me to cityhall. jus as well i cld use the time on the bus to think abt stuff. i looked ard when i was in the buss trying not to miss eth tht pass by me. the bus brought me to places i prob wld nv go. passed by carlton/smu saw a couple tking wedding photos. they looked so sweet and contented. bless them tht they'll stay dis way. got off a cityhall and walked ard city link mall. all these while my brain was over working. sigh. perhaps some things are (not)meant to be. like how God gave me frens in ahs let me hv a taste of wad its like and then tk it away frm me again now in sa. how can i ever expect life to be smooth sailing? i will learn and try to get out of this whole.. situation. i know tht one day i wld continue and get up walk on, but how long issit gna tk? sigh. dis sure is one long post. i wonder how many of u wld hv to patience to read till here.. hmmm. ayye. im hving a throbbing headache now. mb its due to sth.. nonono. i cannot go back.


dont ask cus i wun say.
aiya i better go slp before my brains explode BOOOOOM.

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