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time erases all things.

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quote of the day: " i like to eat 香蕉with banana"
HAHAHAHAHA. this can only come from someone as lame as..the lamest person.haha.
i feel so elated now! heeheeehee





bye^^
good day to all you idiots((:
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EDIT.
that was an hr ago and amazing how my mood likes to be on the swing. blame it on pms, cus ive run out of reason for the moodswings.
i ended my exmas ytd, and throughout this period i had really little sleep. chem paper ended at 3 plus and by the time lcs finished talking t us and all, i reached home near 6. napped for half an hour and studied for econs till12. then i started touching gsc which was also on the nxt day at 1202. slept at near 2 and woke up at 5 to study somemore. so i slept late last night, woke up at 10 this morning thanks to your screaming.
because,
you assumed(expected) i was studying till late into the night and thats why i slept till 10.
okay firstly,
i need a break. i know im taking my gsc a levels nxt month but i need a break. and you thought i should be studying.
secondly, assuming i was studying till 2 plus and thus only waking up at 10 in the morn, you shouted at me. for waking up so late. look, its 10 in the morn the day after my papers end. must you get all worked up?you said it would be much better if i slept at 10pm and wake up at 6am.but i only reached home at 10 plus last night and you know i can never wake up early.

and now you just said, i dont care what time you sleep tonight, im going to pull you up tmr by 830, if not your whole morning would be wasted and even if i sleep at 2 and havta wake up at 830, you are not going to pity me. so, what the shit do you expect me to accomplish tmr morning? finish 3 compres i suppose?
i need a life.
mummy, i do love you. and i know you love me too. but this is not working. im no longer a little girl. please dont be so paranoid if i mention some guy's name for more than once. dont blame everything on bgr, cus really, its not true. but sometimes you response or the way you show concern really hurts me. like when you first found out that i cut myself, what you said make me feel terrible. i dont need you to be like other parents, crying and hugging their child telling them to never ever do that again for i know you never will. but do you know, your response hurt so much worse than the deepest cut. i didnt wanna let my closest friends know about it becus i know they will hurt, i didnt let you know becus i know you would think im stupid and useless.see the difference?

all these years, ive never really seen you shed a tear because of me. maybe you are strong, but i am not. last year you told me" if you were in rj, i wouldnt want to you do any household chores either" till now, the pain is still raw. mummy, are you embarrassed that your daughter didnt made it into the top 5 jcs? are you disappointed that i have no interest and ability to pursue your doctor dream? are you envious of your friends whose children are picked by cambridge to study medicine? you said if i even think of dropping to poly, it would be the dumbest decision.

even if i sleep at 3 tonight, i will make sure i wake up earlier than any of you tmr, even if it takes all 6 alarm clocks. i will not let myself lose. you are so damnit lucky you found someone who loves and cherish you like daddy.

hello stranger(:



name's chuchu.
that's all you need to know if you're on a need to know basis(:



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